Thursday, July 7, 2011

[fuck this]

I should start setting my expectation bar at ground level, that way I will never be disappointed.

I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of fighting to be thin. I'm tired of wishing my life were something different. I'm tired of wanting my boyfriend to do the right thing when ultimately, he is selfish. I am tired of this life.

All I want to do is sleep.

Depression is a very silly thing.


  1. Oh hun, I hope this passes. It sucks to be disappointed, especially by your loved ones! Thinking of you xo

  2. currently the same boat I'm in.. I slept until 6 p.m. today and plan on going to bed way too early. I haven't done anything, even thought about eating today that's how depressed I am.

    I hope you start to feel better, thinking of you during all of this commotion... stay strong <3

  3. Hope things are looking up soon

  4. *hugs*

    Love AJ xx

  5. Sweetie I hope you're alright. Sleeping is never a bad thing, it can be really restorative. Take your time and don't force yourself to rush, unfortunately patience truly is a virtue which is hard to bear in this quick fix, 'I want it now' world that we live in. You'll see a better day, don't worry. big hugs xxx

  6. I hope everything turns around for you soon. Depression is never a state one likes to be in. Although you can't be someone different, you have the opportunity to make yourself into whoever you want to be. You can change your body into what you desire. Although you may not can have a completely different life, you are ultimately in control of your life and the direction it takes you. Don't let disappointment hold you back- see it as a chance to learn, grow, and become stronger ♥

  7. Hoping this passes for you soon, love.
    It will, in time.
    Sending good thoughts your way.
    Hang in there. <3

  8. Aww sorry to hear your feeling so low :/
    Hugs and positive energy sent your way!
    Don't worry depression sucks and its difficult but
    We can all make it out of it :)
    And our expectations have to be high because
    We can prove no matter how hard it gets we will reach the top.
    So stay strong <3
    I'm a new follower btw :)

  9. Aww I'm sorry you feel that way,
    You can only hope for the best
    And just stay positive(: Things will work their way out in the end <3

    Good luck,

  10. I go through this every day love. You just need to think positively, or just look at everything in a different light. It really helps! If it doesn't, maybe consider getting some help? That didn't help me but every one is different!

  11. :( I still love you, Rach. Even when C is being a total d-bag, just remember there are still many other people who love you, too. Military men are tricky, and sometimes it's hard for them to really show their emotion. Maybe he has PTSD. Have you talked to him about that?

  12. I'm sorry you're having a hard time. Men are difficult sometimes - what makes them act the way they do?! Sometimes I don't know whether to hug A or strangle him, but I guess they feel the same about us :/ I hope things look up for you soon xx

  13. I don't like to hear that u are upset or depressed, this is not good :(. if you ever need to talk you can always message me, and I will listen :) stay happy please I know its hard sometimes with the circumstances of life, but always try and stay strong.
    much love